Tiny Twirler

Saying goodbye to Adiah. She looks real sad right? Ok, moving on to my Tiny Twirler

Ava wanted to pose in front of this old boat. We went to this hole in the wall restaurant on Laguna Madre. We had never been before but decided to try it. We loved sitting out on the water. It was so peaceful and relaxing. Aaaahh. What a way to celebrate Ava's final day of twirling camp.

Ava spent the week at a twirling camp where she learned basics of twirling, modeling, tumbling and dance. On the last day they were able to perform all of their new skills for their parents. This was her modeling. They had to walk down the center aisle and split off to the left and then cross in front of everyone to the right and pose at each point. I have always thought of Ava as "the shy little girl" but, let me tell you, this little girl is NOT shy. She was all about the posing.

This was her first pose. Go Ava!

Dancing

I asked her to pose for this one. I did embarrass her a little. psssst pssst Ava hold your baton like this. Ha

Ribbon baton. She really liked this.

Once again, Ava and I had a great time spending the week together. Having one child is sooooooooooo easy.

Go AVA!!!!!

First Summer Camp :(

Poor pitiful mom. Once again I am crying over Adiah leaving. She left about an hour ago to go to her first overnight summer camp. I really didn't think it would affect me like this since she was just gone for a week. However, when she left with people that I barely know and not one close friend it was almost too much for me. Leave it to Adiah though to just push through the nerves and go anyway.
I feel like her life is flying by way too fast. Ever since Adiah was born she has been quite the handful and I have looked forward to the day when she would be more calm and just I guess mind me. Well, in my ignorance I guess I forgot that by doing this she would slowly start gettting to the point of being "grown up". Don't get me wrong, I realize that she still has a lot of growing to do but at this point she seems to grow twice as fast each day as she did even a year ago. I feel guily for trying to rush this and sad that so much has already come to an end. I want to soak up every day that I spend with her and Ava now. I have enjoyed spending this summer with them so much. It hasn't been about trips and swimming so much as just spending time together and doing whatever comes up that day.
Last year I worked so much and missed so much with the girls. I had such a good opportunity and I didn't want to pass it by but by enjoying that opportunity I did not get to enjoy the girls as much. Who wants to fight about homework and getting clothes and shoes picked up every afternoon after getting home from work. And forget about cooking dinner. There's no time for that when you are in ballet, girl scouts, and then kickball and softball. It was really too much and I really don't want our lives to be like that again. I don't want them to miss out on anything but, I think that as the parent I need to cut out certain things in order to be able to have a calm happy family at home. I really have a hard time not letting them participate in the activities that they want to do but in order to do those it really puts a strain on all of us. It's too much. Life is so much fun right now that I wouldn't want to waste another year that I could have enjoyed with my girls the way I am enjoying them now. Even though I'm sad today. :)

My only child

This week has been unusual for me because I am hanging out with just one of my girls. Adiah went to Tyler for a week and Ava and I have been doing the only child thing. Tonight I am a little sad because Adiah doesn't seem to miss me at all. This is all so new to me and I'm not sure how to deal with it really. I am Mom. I am supposed to be her world. What has happened to change this so fast. I want to say, "Adiah, I know you miss me. Why are you acting like you don't? Why are you TRYING to hurt me?" Of course I didn't but, I really wanted to. She has changed so much in the last 6 months and she is growing so fast. I am very proud of her and who she is becoming but, I didn't realize this would come so soon. I want my kids to stop growing and just stay little forever. How pathetic am I? Right now I have tears running down my face just thinking about her. And no, I am not hormonal either. This is truly upsetting.

On a lighter note, I have loved my time with Ava. She has the best personality and unfortunately I don't get to see it for what it really is very often. She tends to hide in her sister's shadow most of the time. She is so funny and loves to joke. We have laughed so much. Monday, Jason and I asked her what she wanted to do while Adiah was gone and she said, "play tennis." So we went to Academy and bought a couple of racquet's and balls. Yesterday we went and played for about an hour and had a blast. It was so hot but she was loving it.
Today we went down to the bay and road bikes on the seawall. I feel so lucky to be able to ride bikes along the ocean. I love just looking out at the water and knowing that this is where I live and I can come back tomorrow if I want. The water was green today and very choppy. The level was up about two feet at least so we were able to see it as we hadn't seen it before. Ava commented several times about how this or that area usually isn't covered with water. I started us way too far away so we didn't make it to the sno cone stand. Ooops! Ava was Ok with just getting a milkshake at the famous two-story Whataburger though. Thank goodness. :)
I can't wait to see what Ava wants to do tomorrow.

Miss you Adiah! :(